Friday was a very stressful day for me. I know it seems like every day is a stressful and hard day which is probably true but Friday was especially hard. I would consider it my first meltdown of the program. What made it so difficult? I’m at the point in the bootcamp where we are learning so much that I want to be able to learn faster and I mentally can’t do it. You can only learn at the speed you can learn. Basically my desire to learn is starting to out way my ability to pick up subject matter in the way that I want to. To make matters worse. There are two students in my class that are very experienced in computer science and comparing my ability to theirs is not very fair of me to do but obviously I find myself doing it. I talked to my teacher about it and he was very encouraging. He reminded me that these two students are very experienced. For someone who hasn’t been doing computer science/ web development for a a while I’m actually doing very well. I’m exactly where I should be with learning the material and I shouldn’t be worrying about it. He also told me that I have an innate ability to debug. Which doesn’t surprise me because I kinda had the suspicion I was good at it, but it is nice to have someone see it for themselves and validate you.
I’ve also noticed that I’ve been procrastinating when it comes to working on projects. I know exactly why too. Who wants to spend 90% of their time trying to figure out why something isn’t working and 10% of the time actually doing something about it. However I just have to suck it up because girl, this is the world of programming. This is what it is all about. Don’t fight the way it is, you can’t change it. No matter how proactive you are with making sure your code is right, something will go wrong. No amount of over engineering and paying attention to detail will make things run smoother. This sounds completely ludicrous to me but I know it’s true. You just have to plug things in, run it, and fix it. I think the sooner I accept this, the easier things will be.
It reminds me of when I was working at OneExchange for the first time and I wanted to see if there was a faster more efficient way to complete applications. The process was long and frustrating but you had to do it and you had to do it right. You know what happened though, as I got better and the process started to change I became more efficient at completing the applications. The way I did them didn’t change much but I knew what was important to focus on verses what wasn’t. I think the same thing will happen with coding once I become more experienced and have the process down. I will know what to focus on and what I can breeze through.
Wednesdays are my longest day!!! I get to class around 9am and I don’t leave until after 630-7. Then I had a python meetup that I attended and that lasted till about 830. I finally got home around 915.
( Oct 23rd, 2015 )